So.

So......

It's been awhile. Not like I haven't been meaning to write but... everything's changed. Every single thing in my life has changed. My situations, my views, my values. Everything has changed. I've spent the last few months just getting readjusted.

Wow, where do I start.

Well for one, I am extremely happy with Zac, the guy of my dreams. What started out as a strong friendship eventually grew into a crush and then into an unbelievable relationship. When we were friends, I knew he was an amazing guy. However, the man I know now, I can't even describe except for he's everything I've ever hoped for plus some. I get it all now. I can see a future- its not a distant toss up as most of my past relationships have been. Its a breath of exhilarating fresh air and a "holding my breath as I take a big leap" feeling all at that same time.

That leads me into our ONLY major difference... me starting life as a full time Vandal. I literally can't wait to have my Masters degree. I told my mom that I didn't care about walking in my Bachelors graduation because it meant nothing to me. This is something I want for MYSELF... regardless of what job or life it brings to me, I want this Masters Degree more than most tangible things, and I want it from the University of Idaho.

JOB.... thats coming. I miss Tamarack. In fact, I miss resort life. Hopefully something will come this winter.

OK. So now that we've established these things, I can move on. And start fresh, posting new things about my new, fabulous life. :)

Spring Awakenings

Recently, everything I had planned had once again been shaken up and tossed me out back to rebuild.

So, this time, I got things squared away in Boise- and then decided to come home.

This isn't a permanent trip home or by any means a move. Its a trip back to pacify the homesickness I have felt the last few months in Idaho. A trip to go back, see friends, see the sights I once called mine and remember why I don't live here anymore. 

As of today, I have been in Orange County for a week. I have loved everyday! I've been doing simple pleasures that I truly missed; going to the coffee bean everyday, going to the beach, gorging in all the food I've missed and not caring about working it off. However, its so easy to understand why I left. Everyone wants to talk about how bad the economy is, the traffic still sucks, everything is still expensive, creepy old men still hit on you at Gulfstream. My friends are spread out all over the place; San Diego, LA, OC, and worst of all, everyone is working to live and to drive their cars- not enjoying the fabulous weather and beaches. 

I feel as though this is my home... even though I have nothing left here but friends and memories, I still feel as though my roots are here and it holds a huge part of me here. I drove through San Clemente and Orange on this trip and it great to think of the fantastic childhood I had here. Especially Orange- Villa Park and Avenida Palmar were fantastic communities I once called mine- driving through the streets in my Eclipse not knowing that life wasn't always going to be that easy and great. 

As I get ready to leave here- I get ready to go to Florida... my other "home". A physical home and where my mom is- not always the same, but its a great place to go, kick up your feet, lay out and watch some bad reality TV. My room is there, my (adopted) cats are there... 

Eventually, I'll make it back to Idaho. I now have the opportunity to go anywhere in the states. Colorado, Atlanta, Hawaii- places I've always wanted to live. Something is telling me to stay in Idaho- I've been looking at jobs around Boise and its looking a lot more promising than job searches prior. I'm feeling more confident and willing to give it a shot out there. I won't be there forever- thats the good news. :)